So, I believe that a tell-all post is long overdue. Not really much to tell, but I have been quiet here for long enough. :p
For most of my teenage years and my adult life, I have felt hatred for most people... thought they were dumb, annoying, careless, thoughtless and lame in general. I made a disconnect and I suppose I felt myself was excluded from these opinions I had of people. Anyway, so it feels safe there, not liking people, feeling I am better than most and so on.
Within the last couple of years I have come to realize, whether I like it or not, I am not so different from every single person in the world. Even the most trashy, lazy, rude people, I can identify with! And, if so chose ,could be just like... SCARY thought but so damn true. :\ I also identify with the me-and-mine money grubbing, ass mongers... Even more-so, the crazy lunatic nuttjobs, kind of always have with them though. :p
So, I realize, I can honestly identify with every single kind of person there is out there. I feel like we are all the same and all of 'them' are a part of me, which is honestly a weird and overwhelming feeling.
So in realizing this I have come to understand, appreciate, embrace humans in general. Weird, but true. So, now, even the most shitty of gestures or expressions will be met with a disapproving smile filled with love... HAH!!! There is however, one exception. The coolness facter gets to me more now than it ever has, and it always has gotten to me... not that I can't relate to thinking I am better than others, but it is usually just a way to mask insecurities. I do find it extremely irritating when people see others as lower than them, or not as cool as them. It is so dumb to me, becasue we are ALL THE SAME AND OF THE SAME ENERGY... fucking morons! GET A FUCKING CLUE!!!
Yeah, so I still need to work on the diplomacy part.
To me, this all means... one persons trashy, lazy slobbish, self - whether you like it or not - effects US ALL!!! So, my theory is to embrace, lead, guide all these lost and disconnected people and become connected again. Use constuctive critical thinking with an intent to change to help eachother. SO THERE!
Ok... enough of that hippie shit! :p